Hey, I'm full of plans. I often dream of stuff where I seem to be young again. Today I woke up and I remembered the dream I was with a girlfriend (?) - and then I woke up and thought: Why do I dream so intensely and why do I feel YOUNG in those dreams ?
Then I wake up. And when I look into the mirror I think: Shit.
I try to avoid to recognize that I'm getting old. I don't want it. My brain still functions ok, as Warg and Torg say ;-)
I admit: I have a problem getting old. Next year 60, and I have a lot of plans which weren't possible at 40.
But I often wake up in the morning and ask myself: Can I still do it or is it too much with my bad eyesight ?
Then I fly down and at the airport my kids greet me and say: "Papa, we know that you are getting old, don't worry. We are your eyes." I say: I'm NOT OLD !! They say: No, not old in the brain. But the rest is not as good anymore.
I HATE getting old. But what is worse is to get old ALONE. And in Europe it's like that. That's also why I quit. Because I don't need intellectual capacity around me but real human feelings when someday my time is up :-)