GETTING OLD...

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Hey, I'm full of plans. I often dream of stuff where I seem to be young again. Today I woke up and I remembered the dream I was with a girlfriend (?) - and then I woke up and thought: Why do I dream so intensely and why do I feel YOUNG in those dreams ?

 

Then I wake up. And when I look into the mirror I think:  Shit.

 

I try to avoid to recognize that I'm getting old. I don't want it. My brain still functions ok, as Warg and Torg say ;-)

 

I admit: I have a problem getting old. Next year 60, and I have a lot of plans which weren't possible at 40.

 

But I often wake up in the morning and ask myself: Can I still do it or is it too much with my bad eyesight ?

 

Then I fly down and at the airport my kids greet me and say: "Papa, we know that you are getting old, don't worry. We are your eyes." I say: I'm NOT OLD !! They say: No, not old in the brain. But the rest is not as good anymore.

 

Imagine.

 

I HATE getting old. But what is worse is to get old ALONE. And in Europe it's like that. That's also why I quit. Because I don't need intellectual capacity around me but real human feelings when someday my time is up :-)

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Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 8, 2017 - 9:13pm
BTW: I envy people who can get old in peace. I hope I can get to that stage once.  I work on it, and, ironically, Africa seems to show me the way.
john guzlowski Added Aug 10, 2017 - 1:04pm
Why Do We Age -- a poem by me
 
(if you don't want to read it, you can hear me reading it.  Here's a link: https://atticusreview.org/why-do-we-age/
 
Is it the moon, the sun,
the pull of Mars or Jupiter,
the movement of the great whales
as they migrate beneath the waves?
Not even Walt Whitman could tell us
although he could tell us more
about youth and living and loving
than anyone else with just a couplet.
 
Remember “Unscrew the locks from the doors,
Unscrew the doors themselves from their jambs”?
 
And what can I tell you about growing old?
That I’ve been to the circus and I’ve seen
the big top from the inside and know
that the sky of stars inside the tent is the circus?
 
That there are things I am giving up
as I move toward my 69th birthday:
things like worrying about silence and flatulence,
the reworking of old puzzles,
the problems God sets before all of us?
 
That my mother loved to hold my hand
when we were walking to the park
and it broke her heart when I told her
I was too old to do that?
And what else can I tell you about aging?
That my father loved to listen to me
talk to him in English even though
he didn’t understand a word?
 
That once I sat next to a dying friend
who kept weeping and whispering something
about sand and water that didn’t make sense?
 
That all I could do for him was sing a song
that I hoped he remembered, something
about hoping that all his rambling
had brought him love and joy?
 
That you can smell the human gases
coming off of dead bodies: hydrogen sulfide,
methane, and yes, cadaverine,
sweet, sweet cadaverine?
And still there’s always the same question:
 
Why do we age?
 
At night you cannot see the dust
Or the paint chipping.
It is all hidden behind the stars.
 
Keys are worthless, locks can’t be
Unlocked, and still you have to walk
through the door.  There is nowhere else.
 
You have to walk through the door.
Minister Peaceful Poet Added Aug 10, 2017 - 1:12pm
One night I dreampt that I had a six pack. Slim and trim and everything.  
Minister Peaceful Poet Added Aug 10, 2017 - 1:20pm
John - that's a good poem and you have a nice voice.  Me, I sound like I got a cold or something, but I figure after I see an allergist that will change.  You know there is a possibility that science can stop the aging process, I don't think they can reverse it.  But I'm sure you've heard that because many chemicals that we are confronted with, in the west anyways, our ability to reproduce is rapidly decreasing and I imagine as this problem becomes more prominent science will work on that no aging process more rapidly.  I don't mind wrinkles, gray hair or age spots.  Actually that makes a person look kinda bronze like, but, the aches and pains and lack of energy, I'd like to see that reversed. 
john guzlowski Added Aug 10, 2017 - 1:23pm
Aging?
 
Art will keep you young.
 
My wife's dad is 93. 
 
He lives at home and paints about everyday.  He gets up exactly at 830 every morning, has breakfast and coffee, and then he does an hour of exercise and then he goes downstairs to his basement studio to paint.
 
A couple of days a week he goes to a local college and helps young art students with their work.
 
He's been doing this since he retired in 1980 as a graphic designer for various cloth and curtain companies. 
 
He's got a basement full of art.  I just wish he would keep his dehumidifier on.  He doesn't think it's necessary and you can't argue with him.  
Dino Manalis Added Aug 10, 2017 - 1:50pm
We're getting older and time flies, stay happy; healthy; and involved!
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 10, 2017 - 1:52pm
John
 
Thanks - a very nice one. Maybe it really helps being into whatever art. Music certainly helps me.
 
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 10, 2017 - 1:52pm
Shep
 
Joe Cocker reloaded ? :))
 
Dennis E. Noonan Added Aug 10, 2017 - 1:56pm
One Day
 
When did I get old?
There is no border crossing
A few miles into the territory
It dawns upon you; you are not
In the sweet Kansas of youth anymore.
 
I cannot remember the day it happened
Or even the year.
It came to my notice
Like a rash, one day,
When my father appeared
Scowling at me in my morning mirror.
 
It's not crossing of line
That you remember,
It’s the jolt, when you realize
You are melting into the dust.
 
Knowing  the finish line
Is just beyond the hill,
We begin to slow our stride
Finding solace in a deliberate pace
– as if to enjoy the run
instead of trying to win the race.
 
So - impatient youth – go ahead
Honk your horn and scream epithets  
At those plodding turtles in the sand. 
We will be out of your way soon enough. 
 
One day, sooner than you think,
Some kid in a hurry will be cursing at you.
You will wonder,
When did I get old?
 
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 10, 2017 - 1:57pm
Dino
 
Thanks !
 
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 10, 2017 - 2:00pm
Dennis
 
Welcome here. I just shivered at the line of the dad in the mirror. Exactly that happened to me too. I checked twice because I saw HIM when looking at me. When I was young I didn't really resemble him...
 
 
john guzlowski Added Aug 10, 2017 - 2:06pm
Dennis, I like that image, the sweet Kansas of Youth!
john guzlowski Added Aug 10, 2017 - 2:08pm
When did I get old?  I'm 69 right now.  I was doing fine until about 3 years ago when I broke my foot.  I can't run anymore and moving fast is a hassle. 
 
For me that's when it happened.  
 
A simple broken foot.
 
The good side of being 69?  
 
I no longer worry about whether or not what I write is any good.  I just write.  In the last 10 years, 3 novels and 3 books of poems.  That makes me feel pretty good.
George N Romey Added Aug 10, 2017 - 2:09pm
Getting old can really sucks. When I was 50 I thought I would live until 100 plus. Nearly eight years later I don't know.  It used to be your 50s and 60s were a time to gear down.  For me it seems like starting all over in the rat race.  That was ok when you were 30. 
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 10, 2017 - 2:14pm
John
 
I wrote most of my songs in the last 10 years too. Before I wrote a handful until I was about 30 when we had a band in Switzerland before I left for Mali. Then I kind of did nothing really new for the next 20 years
 
Leroy Added Aug 10, 2017 - 2:15pm
I'm "Stone"-aged too.
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 10, 2017 - 2:16pm
George
 
It sucks because you have an age full of experience that would you enable stuff impossible at 30 or 40. But just then the body starts to fuck up.
 
wsucram15 Added Aug 10, 2017 - 2:57pm
John..that was a good poem.
SEF..when I hit 25 (now I had had a wild life especially at that point) it was my birthday and I got up and walked to the mirror.  Everyone was wishing me a Happy Birthday..yada..yada and I looked in the mirror and saw my mother for the very first time.
I was hysterical.  I always looked like my Aunt Joanne, auburn hair dark eyes.  Now my mother was pretty and very feminine, blond and quite petite.  But I could see her features for the first time in my darker features.  My eyes arent even the same color as when I was 25.  I morphed into my Mom.
 
I remember complaining about it once to my mother and she told me wait until you begin to feel your age.   I didnt notice feeling age really until after 50, then it sucked.   I just tell everyone when you are younger to worship your body, you only get one.
I just keep super busy...swim if you can and walk a lot.  Run if your knees are in good shape.  
John..I hope I get to live that long and be healthy enough to write like you do.
The Burghal Hidage Added Aug 10, 2017 - 2:57pm
Wie ich habe vorher gesagt: Wir werden zu fruh alt und zu spat klug!
 
Alter is nicht fur Pussies!
The Burghal Hidage Added Aug 10, 2017 - 2:58pm
Oder sollst dass Kotzen? Nicht sicher....
EXPAT Added Aug 10, 2017 - 3:04pm
Stone.
I tried to post a new article in your name showing a very inspiring photo of African Kids with a Tablet. But it was erased, either by Autumn and her 48 hour rule, or Tommy carrying out his threat to disrupt this site.
I will try again tomorrow,
EXPAT Added Aug 10, 2017 - 3:38pm
It was Autumn and her 48 hour rule.
My last post was at
Aug 8, 2017 - 10:05pm
Her notice she was removing my post to you was at
Aug 10, 2017 - 3:18pm
a 7 hour violation due to time difference.
I am a sinner, rules are rules., and must be strictly enforced, even if they hurt.
The photo was great, and I will send it again, and then not post another article for a week, just to be sure I get the time difference correct.
Adherence to rules will make you free!
EXPAT Added Aug 10, 2017 - 3:41pm
P.S. Local time is 02:40 , 11-Aug-2017.
Jeff Michka Added Aug 10, 2017 - 5:18pm
"Sorrowful Geo" Romey cries: Nearly eight years later I don't know.  It used to be your 50s and 60s were a time to gear down.-Well, you actually could have done things, but you write up nostalgia and bemoan you've aged.  WHAT A WORTHLESS WHINER. At least SEFa and others are doing things, even if "boring or not exciting." So?  As old Hidage said, getting older isn't for wimps.  What are you gonna do, Geo?  Will you write more articles about how everyone should suffer, or plan your own demise?
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 10, 2017 - 5:22pm
TBH
 
Wie wahr, der erste Kommentar :)
 
Der zweite allerdings....hm...what's that in English ?
 
 
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 10, 2017 - 5:24pm
Expat
 
That would be a pleasure ! I actually have the same time problem, even more so because the US has different times according to where on is there !
 
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 10, 2017 - 5:27pm
Jeff
 
LOL You see sometimes one has to kick his own butt. Better try and fail than not trying at all whatever you do :)
 
Ric Wells Added Aug 10, 2017 - 6:02pm
I am 65 and still growing. 
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 10, 2017 - 6:19pm
Ric
 
Ah yeah ? I shrink.....
 
John G Added Aug 10, 2017 - 6:26pm
The way things are going and the USA keeps pushing towards multiple wars there seems a good chance that none of us will get much older.
This is every bit as dangerous as the Cuban missile crisis and the less known Able Archer incident.
The entire leadership, the political and media class and the upper bureaucrat level appear to be insane.
Along with a fair proportion of the populace.
Jenifer Frost Added Aug 10, 2017 - 7:06pm
Be careful with statements like that John G, Jeff M will start raving against you if you date suggest insane death cultists are trying to kill us all. Stating the obvious is forbidden in the presence of reality deniers. 
The Burghal Hidage Added Aug 10, 2017 - 7:50pm
Stone - der zweite auf Englisch man sagt old age is not for pussies.
EXPAT Added Aug 10, 2017 - 11:47pm
Test tickle.
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 11, 2017 - 4:44am
TBH
 
Ah ok. Alter ist nichts für Weicheier :)
 
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 11, 2017 - 4:47am
John
 
Agree fully. Question is how to bring reason back into this juvenile bashing and cut back the MIC and the military in other countries. A little war keeps forgetting internal problems.....an old strategy but in the nuke age that's too dangerous.
 
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 11, 2017 - 4:48am
Expat
 
Saw your new one. Nice !
 
opher goodwin Added Aug 11, 2017 - 5:02am
SEF - I can identify with that. I'm impossibly 68 now. I don't feel it - apart from the fact that I can't physically do what I used to. Oh to be able to enjoy playing five-a-side football again. When I look in the mirror and see what I am now it is quite sobering.
Time is running out. Friends fall by the wayside. You always look at the aches and pains as the first symptoms of the end. Yet the mind still works. So much to do and so little time to pack it in.
At the end of the day sitting around with friends, sharing a meal, laughing and supporting each other is the most important thing of all.
Europe seems to have lost that.
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 11, 2017 - 6:08am
Opher
 
We haven't lost it but it's not spontaneous anymore...
 
Micahel Dolan Added Aug 11, 2017 - 12:40pm
Death is inevitable- no one can deny that. So life goes on each day you get older, but that never enters your mind when you are not an oldie on the edge of meeting your maker.
 
Well I am over 70 and- What the Hell happened. Here today gone tomorrow a fact-admit it and be the best person you can be, but you may still have a life of sadness-life of good things It's a crap-shoot .
 
Life is but a Dream-life is but a Nightmare-Carry- On-Your Day will come.  Be Happy-------
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 11, 2017 - 12:45pm
Micahel
 
I try, but there's nothing worse than thinking your body doesn't support anymore the plans your fully working brain has in mind....
 
maybe Alzheimer's not too bad seen that way ;)
 
 
 
 
opher goodwin Added Aug 11, 2017 - 3:15pm
SEF - that is so true. What a drag.
George N Romey Added Aug 11, 2017 - 4:12pm
Seems as you get older you start to realize how much bs one must endure and your tired of taking it. So you become too honest. Sometimes ignorance is bliss. Also your mind needs more to take up its tine given you are less inclined to think about sex.
opher goodwin Added Aug 11, 2017 - 5:45pm
George - can you be too honest?
George N Romey Added Aug 11, 2017 - 5:56pm
Yes Opher and you pay for it dearly. 
opher goodwin Added Aug 11, 2017 - 6:59pm
We all do that. But it is best to speak honestly from the heart even if it opens you up to abuse. Without honesty there is no trust or dialogue.
Micahel Dolan Added Aug 12, 2017 - 12:49am
As I get older I think about-what is next after death. Do I meet my mom and dad-my old friends I grew  up with. Or is it just---------
                                 Over and done with.
Jenifer Frost Added Aug 12, 2017 - 3:06am
Everyone and everything gets old. They say if you live long enough you will get cancer, from the toxins in the environment, or just cosmic background radiation eventually.
 
I imagine an old couple in an old hotel. She has cancer and it's not going to get better. He can't live without her. So they come here, to the old hotel to end it all together. Can you imagine anything more romantic and beautiful? Better by far than growing old and dying alone. Getting old isn't bad, doing it alone is. 
Mark Hunter Added Aug 12, 2017 - 3:12am
I told my wife the other day that I have mixed feelings about my age: There's a lot of traveling and other fun stuff to do, but I've come to realize that I also don't have time to write all the books I wanted to get published. Isaac Asimov wrote more books in one year than I have in the last fifty-five. Maybe I should grab my laptop and travel by train.
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 12, 2017 - 4:43am
Jen
 
Exactly !
 
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 12, 2017 - 5:26am
Mark
 
I guess I'll have the time once I'm back down and don't have 24/7 internet :)
 
Mark Hunter Added Aug 12, 2017 - 6:45am
I don't know; I just came out of two weeks without internet, and my wife just found other things for me to do!
opher goodwin Added Aug 12, 2017 - 8:48am
Well biologically we have to make way for the next generations. We take up room, energy and food.
A short sojourn in a wonderful universe.
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 12, 2017 - 11:14am
Well biologically we have to make way for the next generations.
 
For which ones ? Homo Dumphonus or Homo Androidus aka Zombie ? LOL
 
They are the expressways back to Australopithecus. It has already started. Bääääh says the sheep ;-)
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 12, 2017 - 11:17am
BTW:
 
There's two cows out on the field.
Says one:
"Moooo."
Second replies:
"That's just what I wanted to say."
opher goodwin Added Aug 12, 2017 - 1:29pm
SEF - probably both of them. evolution adapts to the changing environment. It is becoming simpler by the minute. It is not always what we might consider a step forward.
opher goodwin Added Aug 12, 2017 - 1:30pm
Ha ha. I'll tell that to my grandson. He'll love it - just his cup of tea.
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 12, 2017 - 2:09pm
Opher
 
Maybe evolution wants us to take a step back and get back to senses ;-)
opher goodwin Added Aug 12, 2017 - 3:43pm
Or rid of us altogether? If it had a mind.
opher goodwin Added Aug 12, 2017 - 3:47pm
Just told the joke to my grandchildren. They laughed.
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 12, 2017 - 3:56pm
LOL Say hello from me :-)
opher goodwin Added Aug 12, 2017 - 4:07pm
Will do.
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 13, 2017 - 7:35am
Opher
 
I'm somewhat glad that I don't have any grandchildren I know of ;-) Otherwise I'd feel even older. What a gruesome thought to be a grandfather LOL
opher goodwin Added Aug 13, 2017 - 7:47am
SEF - yes it's quite a shock. My grandparents were really old, I mean incredibly old - not young like me. The disturbing thing is that when they were so amazingly ancient they were actually younger than me!
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 13, 2017 - 8:08am
Opher
 
My oldest is 26 now, and fortunately she doesn't seem to want a kid yet. I think it's ok. Times are no easy economically anymore, and if I were young again I'd think twice too to take that responsability again.
 
At least in our Western world. In Africa it's different. Whether you have one or 3 kids, don't matter, one eater more or less don't count too much and gives better chances that one of them one day will find a job or do something on his own.
 
They don't ask for heaps of $ pocket money a month or a steady supply of dumbphones or Nikes.
 
Education......
opher goodwin Added Aug 13, 2017 - 8:17am
SEF - They are leaving it later and later. My daughter has two and my eldest son adopted three - three boys under three! So I've got five.
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 13, 2017 - 8:21am
I've got 3 daughters and 10 adopted kids from the age of 5 to 15, down in Cameroon. That's enuff for me. But since I love kids that's ok. I'm not one of those guys who say that animals are better than humans (leaving out the fact that we're animals as well....) so I have 2 dogs and 3 cats and spend 20 bucks a day to feed them.....
opher goodwin Added Aug 13, 2017 - 9:03am
SEF - that all sounds idyllic to me, I love dogs and cats and kids.
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 13, 2017 - 10:25am
Opher
 
I don't have pets because of what I stated above. Nothing against them, but when they are kept as a replacement for humans something is terribly wrong.
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 13, 2017 - 10:27am
....and with 20 bucks a day a family of 10 can easily feed itself in other places than our "Western paradise" LOL
Jeff Michka Added Aug 13, 2017 - 11:28am
So perfect priestess JenJen, the worthless millennial cryu baby who is all upset not everyone thinks her words are golden sez:Be careful with statements like that John G, Jeff M will start raving against you if you date suggest insane death cultists are trying to kill us all-Still bunker raving, JenJen...you need to prop up your new conspiracy touting friend ol Geo Romey.  Seems your feared war with Russia will get played out in Korea.  Better go have your buddy at the Medium write some more "news articles" to prop up your latest conspiracy before it's too late!!!
Jeff Michka Added Aug 13, 2017 - 11:30am
opher goodwin asks: George - can you be too honest? Geo is crying because he's over 50...that make him, according to Geo, worthless,  Well he's right there...Geo is basically worthless by his own words.
Jeff Michka Added Aug 13, 2017 - 12:12pm
Perfect Kement block priestess JenJen CRIES: Be careful with statements like that John G, Jeff M will start raving against you if you date suggest insane death cultists are trying to kill us all-JenJen also sez: I get my news entirely online and entirely from Truthdig Truthout, OpEdNews, Information Clearing House, Counterpunch, Zero Hedge, and Consortiumnews, AND the Medium, JenJen, not to forget. LOL-JenJen is still upset because her Millennial "golden words" were called out.  Her major source for her conspiracy theory was "The Medium," and by someone who took a break, we're supposed to believe. from running a Reuter's news department before she went into JenJen propping full time, and JenJen is still angry about her investment in her "deep state" conspiracy she has no facts for, so neededs to get back at me because I SAID HER THEORY WAS AS BELIVEVABLE AS Santa and the EASTER BUNNY.  So, she'd trying to bolster her "side" by "recruiting others and still making absurdist claims only the Medium can support.  She keeps claiming to be anti-nazi, but shoirt of irrelevant examples, supports nazis on WB who claim they believe in her conspiracy theory.
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 13, 2017 - 12:58pm
Jeff
 
What's that got to do with the subject here ? I guess you've had trouble to find the right thread ? ;-)
George N Romey Added Aug 13, 2017 - 1:17pm
Stone typical troll.  On to the subject be happy your life was blessed. No regrets.
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 13, 2017 - 2:04pm
George
 
Thanks. I never regret anything. Why should I ? If I fucked up it was always my fault not anyone other's :-)
opher goodwin Added Aug 13, 2017 - 2:17pm
I can't complain. I've had a great life. No major tragedies. Lots of fun, friends, experiences and creativity, a worthwhile career, plenty of love, excitement and a bit of craziness. Wouldn't swap it.
Jeff Michka Added Aug 13, 2017 - 2:41pm
SEFa: What's that got to do with the subject here ? I guess you've had trouble to find the right thread ? ;--Perhaps you ought to direct that comment to JenJen.  She had no problem taking a swipe that had nothing to do with all this whining about getting "old."  As to ol Geo "everyone is a troll but me" Romey  He's milked all sorts of crap about being over 50.  Gee. On top of his intellectual fraud, too.  Poor aging out Geo!!!
Stone-Eater Friedli Added Aug 14, 2017 - 10:09am
Jeff
 
That was just a short remark. But she actually commented on the subject. But that's ok. I do that myself often - getting off subject......

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