I realized the other day that I really have been content with my life. Ive never been all over the world, but it was never in my bucket list to do so. Ive had the opportunity to meet great people and have great adventures throughout my life. With the exception of a couple of things I have done everything I ever wanted to do.
Ive been hungry, but never starved. I have been without a place of my own, but never without resources or a place to live. I have seen addiction at its most brutal and although I have lost many friends, I am still here to remember them and help others not to walk in their footsteps. My children have never done without although if you ask them, they might tell you differently. But they too have been very fortunate people.
Ive learned a lot, tried to not make the same mistakes a second time and if I did, made a conscious effort not to do it a third time. But I am not perfect and while I try to do my best, I will never be perfect. I have two great kids who are adults now and have their own kids. I finally don’t have to rent my house out, my kids are living in the house I bought for them to grow up in and now they can raise their children. Watching them now, is a great joy for me.
As a person, my love of music was a major factor in my life so I spent a good deal of time, visiting places and seeing various bands. I was lucky where I grew up because I knew all the local bands and was able to practice in an old storefront downtown. Later when my son was in his first band, we did the same thing and I had to be there since there were many bands in the space and he was a juvenile. Because of the time frames or type of music I sometimes got to hang out with some really cool people and later was able to help my son a little because of that. I think I enjoyed working in production or promotion far more than in the band.
I have spent years collecting things, as a hobby. Comics, Art, Art Glass, music, handmade seasonal items-especially Christmas ornaments. The hunting for the items I wanted to collect was all the fun, again going to places I had never been. But, I decided that I didn’t want to collect anymore, perhaps if one of my dream comic books comes along in the deal of the century. I decided I would rather create Art than buy it. Ive talked about it often on here and to keep busy I do ebru art , blow glass, fuse glass, make really nice bows at holiday time, and sometimes even make handmade Christmas ornaments. I made all the center pieces for my daughters baby shower instead of buying them. On top of that, I can go out and professionally photograph the grandkids or anything else I want, and add those new pics to my portfolio.
Ive tried multiple careers over the years, mostly due to necessity and with the mindset that I always had the ability and skills to find a job and make money and in those career or job changes I evolved. If I needed additional money, I took a second job. Ive done all kinds of jobs. A friend of mine got me to try stripping as a guest in a revue once…I chickened out before I got on the stage, its just not who I am. Although I don’t see anything wrong with it if you are making money in a revue or legitimately.
I have worked in a Donut Shoppe, Plants, general offices, ran my own cleaning business for 4 years, worked as a server, worked night security, retail, mini newspaper, radio station, law offices, accounting offices, and even delivered pizza, cigs and alcohol. I always preferred working in the law and fell back on that when I needed to have something. In Baltimore though, most offices wanted a degree so in 1990, I went and got one, while pregnant with my son. Its funny but I did well in school when I was younger and really disliked it, but as an adult have spent most of my free time, reading, writing or learning something for a class.
I really didn’t think when my last job ended, I would be able to turn this around, but I did and when my son asked me for some old pictures the other day and I looked back over my life, I realized..I had a good life. I was blessed and I am grateful for that today even more than I was yesterday. To all the people that made my life so full, whether we had good memories or not so good, THANK YOU. To those reading this..its not all about work, life is so short. Don’t waster your latter years on the pettiness of youth. Sit back, look at your pictures, and then try to enjoy those things. You earned it. I know I did…