I believe in God. It is not a God who knows anything more than how to create.
I believe in God. It is not a God who knows anything more than how to destroy.
This is the same exact same God for we cannot create without destroying and we cannot destroy without creating. This reality is what confounds us, since we do not see the seeds of new creation in the destruction of our edifices. Most of us don't anyway. We see suffering and sorrow, and hard work gone to naught and because of this we want to be comforted.
I never seek comfort. Not anymore. There is no comfort for those of us who know God. We know our best efforts will fail to survive the onslaught of time. They will all eventually be relegated to the ash heap of history. Our purpose is only to know God and gain comfort by knowing God and by understanding that the illusion is permanence, this belief in our identity away from God, our belief in our ability to know right from wrong. We don't. No one knows right from wrong, except God.
Attempting to keep things in this world, in your life, from going to shit is a fool's errand. I tried so hard not to lose what I had and in trying to stop the inevitable I lost my creative potential and in not living the life I was meant to live, being creative, I became dangerous and destructive.
It is my belief that this is what happens to all of us when we lose the balance between our creative and destructive halves, imagining that we can be just one or the other.
I have a friend who thinks he's the Devil. He brings people into his life to do them dirty. He has done his best to make my life a living hell, but in his determination to destroy, he doesn't realize that he's making the things he doesn't destroy stronger. He's made me stronger than I ever imagined I could be. Saved me from being a weakling, saved me from never understanding my role in all of this, that my desire to create is a desire to destroy and I have to accept that if I'm to be honest.
Those of us who know God know the end is not what God ever wants for us, but that an end is necessary for new beginnings.
Hey, I got a smart phone. It is a great creative tool. I no longer have to go to the library to post. I can sit in my room and travel the world. It's all good, but will entail some destruction I'm sure. I'm ready to deal with that inevitability. Love and peace to all of my WB connections.